Not Sure Why.

I try so hard not to feel lonely yet I still do.

I have been this way for years.

Talking to my family never helps.

They sure don't understand me.

I don't understand myself.

Lizzy2046 Lizzy2046
46-50, F
9 Responses Mar 12, 2010

My years of making friends from about 17 to 27 was all intertwined with the drug culture. Before that all of my friends kids who read Sc-Fi/Fantasy or played chess. Yes in high school I was part of the geek squad up until the end of my Junior year. I was probably accepted so quickly into the pot heads circle because my brothers were all legends in the town I grew up in, well I guess the official community would have used other words . What's really amazing is that I didn't get drafted into that circle sooner. I'm trying to make friends in the arts community like on elfwood and deviantart but they're all fairly intangible to me. It's just not the same thing as when you can actually see and touch the people you're talking too.

No it's not the same hopefully you will meet the right kind of friends who you can enjoy being around in person.

Not a very good trade off either. It helps a person if they have one good friend to hang with. And we are never to old to make friends just have to be willing too.

I am lonely too. working full time and trying to have hobbies doesn't leave much time these days. On top of that my wife has contributed to me not having friends. But I suspect the most important reason was going through rehab in the summer of 1983. I use to go to those meetings but everyone smokes like a chimney in those groups. I haven't been to any of those groups in 27 years and it's been 28 years since I went through treatment and it has effectively separated my ties with everyone I use to hang out with prior to that time. I've been successful at everything since then except making friends. I guess it was a trade off.

I am lonely too. working full time and trying to have hobbies doesn't leave much time these days. On top of that my wife has contributed to me not having friends. But I suspect the most important reason was going through rehab in the summer of 1983. I use to go to those meetings but everyone smokes like a chimney in those groups. I haven't been to any of those groups in 27 years and it's been 28 years since I went through treatment and it has effectively separated my ties with everyone I use to hang out with prior to that time. I've been successful at everything since then except making friends. I guess it was a trade off.

u left me speechless............Hi........Be happy in life my BFF...............:)

Thank you Uliftmeup for the prayers and hugs. So nice of you.

I am praying for you. A lot of hugs (^ ^)/

I tried theraphy a few times. It sure didn't help.<br />
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I tell myself it will change someday.

I sincerely hope you can find a really good therapist who will honestly care for you and be able to help you learn to understand yourself.<br />
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God Bless You