Trying To Get Back To The Old Days.

During some recent and current events in my life, I have realized that I am not the person I want to be for the rest of my life. I came to the conclusion that I wanted to be a much more positive, engaging human being, and there is one person who I know i can become a much better person with. As you saw coming already, she is my most recent ex-girlfriend.

We haven't talked much since we broke up about 2 months ago. But, with this sudden epiphany, I know that we were meant to be something greater, something better than just people who communicated via texting.

My stomach has been churnning knives inside of me just thinking about her, her not wanting to trust me again, and the ensuing loneliness. What I would give to have but one opportunity to prove to her that I am not, nor will I ever be, the man she last saw, but rather the man she saw when we first started dating.

It seems that with all of this writing that my chances are slim, if existent. I begin to wonder if I even stand a chance. I am asking some close friends around me for suggestions and advice, but in the end it comes down to me to swallow my pride, take a deep breath, and go for it.

SpectreOfTheNight SpectreOfTheNight
18-21, M
Mar 14, 2010