Sick Of Being Single
I really want to be in love with someone, and have that person truly love me back. I'm sick of being single. I'm afraid that my love of cats (lets face it cats rock!) will mean I'll end up the lonley old cat lady. Eurgh!
This doesn't mean I'll settle for any Tom, **** or Harry that throws a compliment my way. Why is it that I'm expected to fall to my knees if a man pays me a compliment? I'm not an unattrative person inside or out so why am I expected to cling to any man that makes a move towards m? According to some of my friends I'm too picky. Which is rich coming from some of them. The rubbish they will put themselves through with the men in their lives just because they are scared of being on thier own is ridiculous!
I just would like a man who's smart,
and is interested in the world around them,
and is interested and values me,
and be more sentimental than I could ever be,
and would feel like they died if there was no music in their life,
and has commen sense,
and has values,
and good manners,
and is honest,
and is attractive,
and sees the same in me,
and isn't perfect,
and can laugh at themselves,
and understands the value of a good hug,
and understands the value of good sex,
and understands the value of a great friend,
and won't be afriad to disagree with me, but not devalue my opinion
and will not get on my case three months down the line for being the same hard arse they met initally,
and gets that i'm a big softy underneath it all,
and will at least try to understand my obsession with The Sims
Who understands that I think sending me a bunch flowers is pointless, because the minute you take them out of the ground they start dying. How is sending me something that's dying but "pretty" supposed to be romantic? I've just never got that. Not that I don't get the sentiment, but a box of dark chocolate will get you much further
and I want him to be taller than me, and if he's not, he got to understand, it will take an act of God to separate me from my high heels.
Oh I could go on all day!
I just want to share me life with someone. Not someone who is going to "settle me down". Why do people use words like that? "Settle down", "Serious relationship". I mean seriously, could you make commitment sound any more unattractive or less fun? If I'm off flying in the land of fantasy, with crazy ideas, silly moments of delusional imposibility I want someone who wants to either fly with me, or be my anchor so I don't lose my head. Not drag me down with serious, settle down stuff. Settle down is what you say to an overactive child not about the person who want to grow old and live your life with. I can't be the only one who sees this.
In the end I do want the whole traditional lifestyle. Husband, children, a jack russel terrier call Rufus, a cat and possbile some fish of some kind. I'm not asking for it today but some sort of sign that I'm at least getting close would be great. It just seems hard to find those on my wavelength, and those that are either are already spoken for or really don't see me.
I know I need to put myself out there more but It's not like I haven't been trying. Dating can really dampen the spirits though but I've been single for too long now. I just need to keep looking