My Inner Peace
I feel as if there may not be any for me. I have a variety of issues that prevents me from finding it. I struggle with several mental problems, which in itself creates inner turmoil. I do not struggle with my faith; I have found that by accepting that what I may believe may be wrong, but no one can prove that to me until after I die, so it is my best guess. I don't judge others for their beliefs and no one can budge me from mine because of how I feel about it. If there is no resistance to the idea, there is no room for alteration.
I find myself daily wondering what may be wrong with me... wishing I knew the answer so that I can fix it. I struggle with my faults. I know that no one is perfect, yet I wish that I was better. I don't want to be perfect. I just want to be somewhat normal. Be able to think like everyone else and not be plagued by fear and doubt. I want to be able to sleep at night like everyone else. I want to be clean like everyone else. Thats all I really want.