My Inner Peace

I feel as if there may not be any for me.  I have a variety of issues that prevents me from finding it.  I struggle with several mental problems, which in itself creates inner turmoil.  I do not struggle with my faith;  I have found that by accepting that what I may believe may be wrong, but no one can prove that to me until after I die, so it is my best guess.  I don't judge others for their beliefs and no one can budge me from mine because of how I feel about it. If there is no resistance to the idea, there is no room for alteration.

I find myself daily wondering what may be wrong with me... wishing I knew the answer so that I can fix it.  I struggle with my faults.  I know that no one is perfect, yet I wish that I was better.  I don't want to be perfect.  I just want to be somewhat normal.  Be able to think like everyone else and not be plagued by fear and doubt.  I want to be able to sleep at night like everyone else.  I want to be clean like everyone else.  Thats all I really want. 

ecbarre ecbarre
22-25, F
1 Response Dec 6, 2009

ever think that no one is"normal" and we all have inner turmoil at times, in other words you are not alone...and maybe what you are looking for is right there but u just have seen it yet... be patient with yourself... you will find what u need