An Update...i Found Him.
I found my father ...
I just wanted to update my story...
The only information I was given was his name. Not a lot to go on... After years of trying to locate my birth father on my own, I hired a private investigator. Three weeks later I was speaking to the ex-wife of my fathers brother. After a long conversation she said that she would call his father to confirm if I had the right person or not.
The next day when I called her again, she said, "I spoke to your grandfather and that is your dad." She gave me my grandfathers phone number and my brothers cell phone number. They both wanted to talk to me!
The day that I spoke to my father for the first time in my life... he told me he knew he had a daughter, but was never given the chance to be a part of my life. He asked me if I had had a good life and if I was happy and told me he had always wondered about me. It was a good conversation, long silences and all. Before we hung up he told me he was glad I found him and that I could call any time.
Two months later I am getting to know him as well as my half brother and sister and my grandfather. We are planning to meet this spring.
Finding my father has changed who I am. I no longer feel unwanted and unloved. He has in his own way filled an emptiness and hurt inside me I never thought would heal.
I am not unrealistic about this reunion. My father is not perfect, I am not perfect...but in my soul I feel a peace and calmness I have never know. I am no longer the little girl without a real daddy. I am a woman who has found her father-a father who in his own way loves me...as only a father can love his daughter.So...that is my story...so far.