Finally!I thought I was the only one going through this too. My husband and I will be married 19 years Nov.2. Unfortunately we were good friends in the beginning and should have stayed friends. I hung onto him because I was having severe panic and anxiety attacks which led to over six years of home bound agoraphobia. I'm 90% over that, but now I have fibromyalgia, dercum's disease, and a host of other illnesses that keep me on disability. To top it off my parents are now in memory care and I'm their sole caregiver. For lack of better word, I'm stuck. I can't afford to live on my own ~ disability doesn't go very far. And I have to be in a stable situation to continue caring for my parents. I've tried to make things work between my husband and myself, but it seems I've been the only one trying. When we were married, he already had two children, so decided he didn't want anymore. He basically took my choice away from me. I'm one of those people who believes a child should have both parents, and did not want to "just get pregnant" when it was so obvious it wasn't something he wanted. I have met a couple men online and then in person who I thought were the perfect partners, and my "Knights in shining armor" that were going to take me away.... But both wound up hurting me. So where does a married person meet someone safely. I'm relieved that I'm not the only one in this type of situation. I've been feeling really alone.........
Thank you for letting me join in.
irishrose4 46-50, F 4 Responses 1 Oct 21, 2010