I Am Looking to Improve My Life

I Decided To Forgive

By: apml

Written on April 8th, 2012

my dad wants to have a better relationship with me after all the abuse and yelling and **** like that but at first i didn't want anything to do with him. i know it sounds pretty tough but really how can you grow to trust someone after stuff like that happens? so i have really been thinking, and the abuse has simmered down like alot i mean its not even bad anymore, my dad doesn't really yell alot and he is patienter or more patient. my heart decided to forgive... i mean he is my dad i guess and if he wants to start fresh than lets do it. it was hard making that decision because you think about every little thing that has caused pain in your life. if Jesus forgave, than i can too. people aren't perfect everyone makes mistakes some more than others but everyone makes mistakes and people deserve a second chance. i honestly think that if i let my dad into my life, then i will be really truly happy. this for me is a big decision but i think it will be better for the both of us . i know that memories will will last but in my heart my dad is forgiven.

By: apml

Age: 13-15 , Female

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6 responses

patch15

Glad you feel this way. Yes, he probably let his emotions get best of him. Have feeling he really cares for you. He isn't perfect, and I sense you realize. Hopefully what happens from here on out will be positive; best of luck.

Jun 29, 2012
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- hylierandom
  ...He burnt her hands...
  
  Apr 16
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- apml
  i had to learn to accept the past as the past. although the abuse scarred me ,and left me with PTSD, it still was the past and i have to move forward now and try to overcome it. im trying to get better so please dont worry there are kids out there who have had it so much more worse than me.
  
  Apr 16
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- hylierandom
  I never forgave my dad. On the other hand he'd have to change a LOT for me to want him in my life, and part of that change would be apologizing and making amends.
  Has your dad made any amends? Has he apologized? Has he said he was wrong? Does he acknowledge that you have PTSD due to his failure as a human being?
  
  Apr 16
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- apml
  He only apolagized so i wouldnt tell the authorities and put him and jail again, that's what i beleive but he did say that he was wrong and he has changed alot. he only hurts me with words now and thats good and bad. We dont talk about my Ptsd, my older sister has it too, we just dont bring it up. if im having nightmares he tells me to pray or whatever but yea we dont talk about it
  
  Apr 16
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- hylierandom
  ...My abuse was bad in different ways, and the physical part of that came from both parents.
  ...I've been able to forgive my mother, but I don't trust her.
  ...Ultimately forgiving or not forgiving is your choice.
  The idea that you have to forgive to get better is nonsense.
  You do what's best for YOU.
  
  Apr 16
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