My Best Friend Is Dyeing Of Lung Cancer

My best friend is dyeing of lung cancer she is terminal and was told she has 3 to 10 months to live.This is very hard for me.
southern34 southern34
31-35, F
1 Response Nov 20, 2011

I understand what you're going thru. The closest friend I've ever had was diagnosed with non-hodgkins lymphoma sometime around the beginning of last year. It was one of the toughest things we ever went through together and as bad as it sounds it put a strain on our friendship. We were roommates at the time and now were 3 hrs away from each other. She went into remission and was doing great for a while but now they've told her there's nothing more they can do and she has less than a year to live. I only found this out when she explained it in a letter I received just a few days ago.
I think I'm still in shock over this news because I haven't really reacted to it yet. I've been too busy to dwell on it but the severity of the situation is sinking in slowly. I feel like the worst person in the world for not being around for her. And the fact that I got a DUI and can't drive to her makes the guilt even worse.
I've always been her wall to lean on, and shoulder to cry on and I don't like not being there with her.