Losing Myself But I Cant Understand Why

well everything has been going great so far im in college taking culinary courses to obtain a degree and recently i found out the my sister was coming home after doing 7+ years in prison and i was excited. At the same time i was awaiting my results from a test i took and i passed everything was okay thanks to god but then shortly after that even though my sister was home and she was doing alright i started feeling weird i wasnt attending class, doing community service, i wasnt doing anything then i started feeling like i didnt want to do anything and it just grew. Now im to the point where i dont want to do anything i dont know whats bothering me I feel like self destructing. My mother has been deseased for almost 4 years now and i dont know if that has anything to do with why i feel this way but i dont know what to do. I can see my self jumping off a building and i told my best friend and he became really worried but he ask me why and i have no idea...i feel like im losing myself.

p.s. this has been going on for about 3 weeks now 

Bluebirdilllusion Bluebirdilllusion
18-21, M
1 Response Mar 2, 2010

It WILL get better. The light will return. Keep talking about it. Talk to a friend and be honest. You have a purpose and WILL find it. DO NOT GIVE UP !