Could Life Be Hell?
I am at a spiritual crossroads in my life I don't really know which way to go. There is so much counter-intelligence in this world it is hard to know what the truth is. I have noticed the main things humans back their exsistence on is what they believe and not what they know. For instance "I believe jesus was the son of god so i am a christian" verses "i know jesus is the son of god so i am a christian". I have heard convincing arguements for all belief systems and I can actually come up with good reasons to choose any beleif system. The thing that kills me is none of us know the truth. i often question if there is a God why does he not bother to show himself to us since he wants us to worship him and why did he make the world so confusing. I also wonder if God is good why did he allow evil in the world. Christians say it was the devil who did but that is such a bs excuse for me if you are going to give god credit for creating everything that means god created evil as well, he even created satan. And since god is all knowing god knew what he was doing when he did so, so therefore god must have a bad side as well as a good side if he exsists. Then ideas come to my mind like maybe Satan is God's dark alter ego and they are infact the same entity he is God when you do as he commands and he is the devil when you dont. i also wonder if we are al gods children and he loves us all equally wouldn't he want us to all go to heaven and since he's god could he not have made us with out the ability to sin. Why even make us go through life why not take us straight to heaven. I also am starting to roll around the idea in my head that life maybe hell. Think about it. What worse hell is there than to live with death lurking over your shoulder all the time? What worse hell is there than not knowing the meaning of your existance? What worse hell is there then developing love for other people just to see them die one day? What worse hell is there than to be human (since being born is a sin) ? Maybe we should top trying to escape hell in the after life because life is hell