...sigh Where Do I Start

I could go into my life story but won't. I am almost 30 in about a month and I seem to have nothing. I have 2 kids with 2 different women. I am engaged to be married to the mother of my 19 month old son. We have been together almost 4 years only engaged a few months now. So here is my issues or whatever. I have no job really I am was a union construction worker but basically haven't worked thru the union in 2 years I have collected unemployment this entire time now it has ran out and I am about to have 0 income. I had a job that I was working at and quit to go work for a friend now it seems that he don't need me anymore. So now I have nothing. Back to the fiancé thing I love her I really do but lately we have grown apart. There is alot to that. We seem to have different goals different ideas about what life is about. We never used to argue now we never seem to get along. I really don't want to waste time and money getting married just to have it fail before it starts but maybe that is my depression overshadowing what is real. So yea I am depressed but lol who didn't know that. I don't have anything persay I have a crappy car no job barely any friends in real life I am addicted to a mmorpg (not WoW) but similar. I bury myself in that sometimes so I don't sweat what is really going on. My relationships have suffered. Sometimes I don't give a fk other times I just don't know what to do. I never been at a point in my life like this and I just don't know what to do. Stressed about money stressed about my relationships the very fabric of what is my life seems like it is slipping away and I can't catch it. I just don't know what to do where to turn and what's going on. I also feel like I have no1 to talk to who understands me or what I go thru or feel
Kthanxbye Kthanxbye
26-30, M
2 Responses Aug 9, 2010

Well, it's been about 2 years since you posted your remarks. i wonder how you are . . . and I hope things are working out for you. <br />
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Best of luck what every you're doing.

things can change in an instant. you may get a call anytime about a job. just keep trying like you've been doing. As long as you are trying something is bound to change. <br />
And, if the two of you really love each other, you can make it work. God bless you.