Its Happening Again
i dont know how i get to this stage. where everything feels like its falling apart when really its all in my head. why am i so paranoid. why cant i just accept the good when i always accept the bad. life seemed so much more fuller this day last week and now my mind is playing tricks on me when im trying to be strong, its like i wont let myself be happy. im sending all these bad thoughts out into the world and its working, everything is slowly unraveling. im lost again. i hate it.