I Give Up

I've thrown in the towel, I surrender, I'm finished. I've always been a fighter in life and have always clung onto hope as a reason to continue fighting problems and battles in life, but I quit. Every time I get a glimmer of hope that I will be happy, some event always follows and shreds that glimmer of hope up. I'm tired of holding on to false hope. I'm going to have to accept the fact that I will always be alone an miserable in this world. I don't really care about anything anymore, even myself. I have zero confidence anymore and am done fighting a losing battle. Society, you win.
pflz91 pflz91
18-21, M
2 Responses Jun 24, 2012

Thankyou, thankyou so much...<br />
Thankyou for feeling this way and typing this out. <br />
I know it sounds funny, but this is what i felt <br />
and being so dead (before and after realising i am lost),<br />
i am already having no strength to even type this much and well like you did.<br />
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Lol you know what i took me weeks to realise why I'm in this state of not progessing anyway: I'm dead. I'm sick of trying. I'm lost. Really lost.<br />
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I understand what you are saying. The same happens to me, and probably everyone else in this world. Everything is going great, your going with the flow, and then bam! There's a dam in in river, what do you do? Stay stuck there hoping the dam will finally break apart, or do you take charge full force and break through it yourself?<br />
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I thought about this for awhile, I don't want to stay stuck, I want to push forward. <br />
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You will always have those times in life when something goes wrong, but you have to keep going.<br />
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Abraham Lincoln is a mentor for me. He ran for president 8 times and failed, had a nervous breakdown, then became the president of the United States. <br />
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Obvously, if he can do it, then anyone can. The impossible, is possible. It's all in our state of mind. <br />
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Don't give up on yourself or life. :)

You know, there was a time when i was a very resilient person. Unfortunate events would occur and I would shake them off and always have the mindset of tomorrow or the future will hold better things. But after 21+ years of tomorrow having nothing better to offer, I've given up. My confidence is shattered beyond repair and my history always repeats itself regardless of how hard I've tried to fix it. There is NO ONE who can relate to or understand me. This is why I have the mind set that I currently have.