What Happened? Maybe It Is Less About That Than Getting Out...

Used to feel like life was in front of me--full of possibilities. Liked what I was doing, having fun and then thought I needed to be more deliberate in my direction. Feel like I have been spinning on a tread mill for the past decade. Very busy--doing others' work, helping others--lost myself--not so joyous. Don't remember happiness or fun. Lost touch with close friends--only stay connected at a distance. Embarrassed about losing touch. Too tired to do anything about it. And yet, no time to ponder it--too much to do. Too busy to pay attention, in a job that is more trouble than fun. Lost my career and dreams. maybe I lost them because I wasn't clear about them. Feel stuck--age is also coloring it--though I thought it never would. Kind of alone and don't know how to turn it around. Looking for some steps to stop the cycle as time wears on. Trying to take some time to get back in touch--guess that is the first step. Hmmm.
Graba Graba
56-60, F
1 Response Dec 31, 2012

Hi, I just joined on here after googling the subject of loneliness. I'm seem to be in the same spot that you are. I think I've aged prematurely on top of it because of the loss that's taken place in my life. I used to be so adventurous. I used to feel excited about what could be. I'm not sure where it went but I doubt my own "magic" now because life has beat me down... or maybe I have been doing it to myself? I write about me only to let you know that you are not alone in this. Try to find your "magic" again... that thing that used to spark you to excitement. Don't let age stop you. That feeling is timeless and has just been suppressed. Perhaps by writing this about myself, I have helped you as well? That is my hope. Happy New Year.