Only In My DreamsThere was a song by Debbie Gibson out called that when I was little.
So yeah, only in my dreams...that's the only time I've had any type of happiness at all in the past month.
I had a dream recently where I met Patrick Swayze, and we talked about dance this and that, and then we danced together a little bit. :-D
I was so so happy in that dream! One of my biggest passions is dance. Sadly though, since I havn't felt good in close to a year, I havn't really danced. Back when I did feel well though I danced my booty off.
The dancing itself I loved loved loved, but often times the people that were dancing with/along side me would get on my nerves. When it was all girl thing, I felt like I got a silent type of attitude or looks that were I guess supposed to kill. Then when it came to partner dancing, like lindy hop or something, I felt like ew I didn't want those guys touching me...some partners were ok and actually nice to dance to and dance with, but there were plenty of the others.
I didn't stop dancing because of that though. I stopped because I got sick. I miss it, but there were almost more cons thsn pros, so I don't know. I was thinking of just switching venues/groups and exploring the options when I got sick.
So that's out.
Another thing of huge importance to me is animals. Other than sending e mails speaking out against cruelty, there's not much I can do in that arena either. My precious bunny boy is gone. I don't have the strength to go to volunteer or anything either.
I wish there was a guy that I could meet that actually knew how to dance, partner dance, and knew how fo lead and stuff. I don't really know how to jitterbug or do the west coast swing but I can dance...and that's all it really takes, plus learning a few technicalities. I remember one time when I went to one of those lindy hops...I danced one of the pros there, and it was effortless. I was new at it and was focusing on the correct foot steps etc, he said "don't look at your feet" lol", then it all feel into place. :-)
That guy was kinda giving me googley eyes too.. heheee lol
So the point of the story is...but only in my dreams. There's no way I'm going to meet a Patrick Swayze type that knows all about dance, and that's single, and coutless other requirments.
I'm not even in my 20s anymore. And, alas, I don't feel well.
Don't forget to cherish every open floor!!! ;-)
watch your feet", so then it all fell in to place. :-)??