The Fog Of Life's WarI am lost as how to approach this. I am truly lost. I am 43 years old. I know I have significant talent and I love people very much.
I have gone through a series of losses where I feel like there's nothing left for me. At one time, I was a small business owner, a chocolatier, married with two wonderful Cavalier Spaniels, a nice home, and some wealth.
That's not the case anymore. One by one, I lost it all. I sold my business and had to re-enter the job market with my technology skills. My marriage collapsed. My dogs are no longer in my possession, I trained them and loved them very much. I spent myself into ruin.
I have a great job and potentially a high level of earnings potential. It's getting on the road back that is killing me. I am not in my 30s and I have fibromyalgia, to be honest, I don't even know how much pain I am in anymore.
I am alone - small apartment - new area - so hard to get started meeting people. The biggest issue for me is happiness. I feel dead and I know I want to die. I am scared at the same time.
I feel a step slow. I am saving half my check every month. I know there are good things, so why am I so unhappy? I don't know what to do or who to turn to. It is a nightmare.
I do take anti-depressants and I have sought therapy in the past. I don't think the therapy part works for me. I don't know if I will ever be truly happy. I feel like I am in prison.
TY for reading, I do appreciate it very much.
tedboosalis 41-45 4 Responses 0 Jan 20, 2013