Who Am I Now

I don't really know who I am anymore. I feel like I am standing still while everything around me is moving really fast. Awhile back my bestfreind tried to rape me. On the outside I make it seem like I am doing fine but it haunts me everyday and every night I hate who I am because of it and I don't know what to do anymore. It eating me up and I feel like I am 'lost in the void." I don't know how to get back evereything he took from me that day and the scary part is that I don't think I ever will...

candycutie93 candycutie93
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 7, 2009

Reverse the effect traumas have had on you. Mediatate, sit quietly, look straight ahead, notice when you get lost in your thoughts, gently pull yourself out and look straight ahead again.

That sounds terrible. I can't even begin to imagine what thta must feel. It sound like you maybe need to seek councilling. It is not an easy thing to do, but you will feel better for it. You don't want to let this event rule your life. I was depressed while I was at high school. I got professional help and now I am better for it. I still get depressed sometimes, but now I can ride it out and find the way out. You also may want to think about pressing charges against this guy. If he can rape once he will do it again. He shouldn't get away with what he did you. Good luck, I hope everything works out. My thoughts and prays are with you