Does Anybody Hear Her?

I don't know how else to put it other than like this: Who am I? I feel like my experiences in life have consumed so much of me that I don't know who I really am anymore. So many things reoccur and resurface sometimes out of no where, which shifts my sands all over again. I had a good idea of who I was until nightmares I once had or heard of became a reality for me. I don't even remember who I used to be. I just feel like every time someone attacked, assaulted, or violated me, they took another piece of me with them. It honestly isn't fair. I am beginning to really hate myelf, and I feel literally hopeless about myself. Whenever I meet people I know or just strangers randomly, I smile and tell them my day is fine. But that's all just pretense. I wonder if anyone even sees who I am behind all the fake smiles, if anyone knows me. I feel like I'm yelling and screaming, butno one seems to hear me or notice me. I remember especially one time when I was answering a question in class and everyone just ignored my comment. Only one person behind me ended up saying: "Does anybody hear her?" I guess no one does. That's how it feels at least.
Brielle18 Brielle18
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 18, 2013

People hear, all you have to do is speak loud enough :)

Good point:) Thank you