Most people like me a lot more than I like myself.  I'm learning to love myself though, slowly but surely.   I am friendly, but kinda quiet.

ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
41-45, M
2 Responses Jun 4, 2007

I think you're right that the people I'm around are more wild types that don't appreciate a quiet person so much. I am finding it to be hard to make new friends though. The strange thing is that many of the past actions that I regret are my actions only, me feeling that I made a fool of myself and how I've done it over and over again, a cycle. So there is no other party from which to ask forgiveness, only myself. I have a real problem forgiving myself and it's not that I don't try. I have made affirmations, ran through scenarios again in my head to acknowledge their presence and then attempt to let them go, to forgive myself, to no avail. I will do my best to discover some uncovered qualities that I have. I know that there is latent potential within me but I'm not quite sure how to access it. Thanks so much for your comments, you are always so helpful and wise.

I know that loving myself is most important but I don't know how to do it. I think bad thoughts about myself all the time, I guess you could say I have a low opinion of myself. I don't really desire to, not really sure why, but my mind doesn't like itself. It beats itself up is the only way I can think to put it. I do like who I am at times, it's not that I constantly think of how I hate myself. I just can't seem to let go of the past and my mind constantly makes me feel guilty for things I've done. I can't seem to stop this either which is another source of hating myself. I just get really tired of being this way and would rather just end it all at times. I think being quiet and being a listener can be good attributes but unfortunately society doesn't think so most of the time. People think you're boring and weird.