I'm So Stupid...

I keep telling myself I have no reason to cut, and I have no reason to want to kill myself, and to be depressed. But I do, and ya, they might be stupid reasons to some. But to me they are horrible events or memories. I want to believe what I say to myself, but I know it's a lie. but you know how you can tell a kid that their uncle or something was a great person, when you know he wasn't, if you say it enough. You will start to believe it. I hope. I don't want to try to kill myself again, or cut anymore. But I can't help it. So I don't stop
Emofox Emofox
18-21, T
May 5, 2012