It's Time For Change....
They say do it afraid....just step out there and do it. So I'm taking that step. Am I afraid? Dang skippy I am! My life is about to change from all that I feel secure in and head in a direction with no signposts or GPS signals.
First thing I changed was my heart. I've held someone in my life at arm's length for a long time out of my own fear of being hurt again. He is the kindest, most wonderful man, and I've finally allowed him to be part of my life. You all know him on EP as BigRedMachine (lol, and CheekyGeek and Giggles have their own nicknames for him!). He and I have been good friends for quite some time and it's the right moment to accept his sweet requests to take this relationship a step further. I'm ready ;)
The second big change I am making in my life is coming after the New Year. I have decided after much thought, worry, pacing up and down till the wee hours, and meditation, to leave the safety of my career in the Air Force and begin my own practice. I am a physician and have dreamed of my own clinic incorporating medicine and naturopathy/holistic medicine. I wish to treat the whole person and not just the symptoms and that is not possible in my current circumstances. The numbers have been crunched and it's doable so I'm stepping out on that limb and going for it. I want to thank all my friends for being so supportive.....your love and encouragement has made this possible.
With these two seemingly simple, yet huge, changes will come many more changes but I'm up to it and looking forward to the future. Again, I'd like to say thank you so much to everyone who has encouraged and supported me. Miss Giggles and her TrprBadass, DragonMoonsong, and of course, BigRedMachine are those I know personally and have been there for me every step of the way. To you I will be forever grateful, I love you all. Miss CheekyGeek, Alteredego, and Alluneedis are my EP family. I have never met any of you and yet you give me great encouragement and strength to know I can face anything life throws at me and survive. Not only can I survive it, I can thrive and find the courage to carry on. Love and hugs to you, my Sisters. I feel so very blessed the goddess brought you all into my life.
Now I know Giggles is laughing right about now 'cause I'm getting all "mushbuckety"....lol, so I'll hit submit!
Wish me luck .... today is the first step on the path to my future ;)
AutumnFrost77 31-35, F 14 Responses 6 Dec 18, 2011