Is It Still There?

I've been married now for 4 years and I feel like a strange in my marriage. People say it's the way I act because i am strong willed and stubborn. I know i have shut down all my feeling because i feel lost. I actually feel like a toliet, pissed on sh!!ed on, and not cleaned. It's horrible to feel like that but i guess if your scared you will shut down and start being depressed. Lately my husband has been keeping late hours after 12 midnight and the lastest time has been 6 am, what am i to do, what i am i to think? Is my suspicious true, is there another woman besides me is there someone taking my place, is this why im feeling alone. I thought when you are man and wife you have some type of understanding. Granted i have had a few mishaps in my relationship but i admitted my faults, which is not usual for a hot headed, quick tempered person to do. Did i push him away or did we both push each other away? How to re kindle this marriage? There is a lot going on to much to explain, I just want the man i feel iinlove with back.
lortricez lortricez
22-25, F
2 Responses Oct 1, 2012

Sometimes you take the ones for granted that are the ONLY ones you can count on....4 years of marriage isn't long....not sure what is going on in his life to already neglect you...

Are you able to speak to him about it? When was the last time you told him that you love him and that he loved you?

Yes I tell him everyday and lately I've been getting umm humm good night. When I try to talk to him , he finds so etching else to do do he don't have to listen to me. It's funny that he can talk to everyone else and ignore me.