Gay Husband Married To Straight Wife
One of the best or worst parts about the Internet is that it makes you realize you are not alone. Since I was a kid, I have felt I might be gay, yet it was something I could not accept nor tell anyone. In high school and college, I would go to those dirty book stores to get off with another guy, but in my social circle, I was all man and hot for women.
My guess is that while I tried to hide it as I grew up, by parents knew. I will never forget the comment my dad made after meeting my girlfriend (who would become my wife). She and I had stopped by one of his friends house where they had been drinking, and he made the comment that she was good looking and didn't think I had it in me. The way he said it told me he had his doubts that I was straight.
Today, my wife and I have been married for almost 25 years. Overall we have a good relationship and most would consider us extremely successful. What they don't know is that we have a sexless marriage which causes the most frustration for both of us.
My wife and I have discussed this issue and she has approached the "are you gay" question multiple times but usually it is when we have been drinking and I never give her a straight answer. I am sure she knows but has chosen to ignore.
At this point in our life, I think we both are of the opinion that what we have with each other is not perfect, but there is so many other positive aspects between us, that it is worth staying together. That and the fear of the unknown probably keep us together. I know she has wondered if she would be able to find another guy at her age. I worry that the grass may not be greener on the other side if I came out.
So life goes on. Frustration builds up from time to time until she explodes, then within a day or two she is fine and we continue