Why Is She Not Capable Of Love?
I am writing my story and please forgive me if it's a little vague but too much detail might cause unwanted problems. I have married to this woman for 12 years now. When we first got together it was love at first site. I prided myself on making sure that every day of our lives she knew how much I loved her. I gave flowers at least once a week, write cute little notes so that she would just happen across them throughout her day and gave 1000% of my heart in soul to her in everything I did. I made in my mission to make her honestly believe that she was the most beautiful woman in the world to me, I did this every day. I realized early on in our marriage that she was not nearly as exressive with her love and feelings as I was. I accepted this, as everyone is different. Our sex life has always been extremley active, 12-years together and we still have sex at least 4 times a week, unless illness or travel keeps us away. She was diagnosed with an illness about 4-years ago so she has her good and bad days. She is a great mother to our children and I take pride in how incredible I am at being a father. We do argue quite a bit which I try my best to avoid at all cost. I have never met anyone in my life that cannot admit their wrong, more than her. I have not felt that she loves me for a very long time now. We do not communicate even as much as I have tried. I pick times that we are getting along and when I approach her to talk, she shuts it down with an argument. I am an extremley affectionate guy who desperatley needs to feel love. We have not slept in the same bed for over 3 years now. I try and beg her and tell her how much it matters to me but nothing changes. I know in my heart that love is just a word to her, a word she says to me because I say it first. I tried talking to her and told her that love comes from your eyes, from your soul, from your touch and the littlest things we do. I need to feel love again. I wouldn't know how I would react to someone that showed me as much love as I have shown her. Her I am left to feel like I am being used as a provider and a sex buddy with no attachments. I am an open person who believes that communication is the most important part of a relationship. I would like to hear from any females that are in the same situation. Thanks for reading my post.