Hiding My True Feelings
I have been married for almost 13 years now. We have 3 adopted children. I'm truly at a loss on what to do. I'm hiding my true feelings from my wife because I really don't want to panic. She is diagnosed bi-polar with severe depression along with having a disease called vulva dynia. So sex is painful for her and she tells me its like a hot pan against her crotch. She on so many meds that she really has no iterest in sex even with all the pain. It makes me feel guilty when we do have sex. I am a very passionate person and its killing me not to have that connection. I get her flowers, suprise her with cards and she really is just there. Most of the time she sleeps. I don't want to hurt my wife or girls by leaving but I feel myself slipping into depression. I need more connection and true passion.