Needing Affection Isn't Acceptable

I have been with my wife for 7 years and I love her. I am a physical and affectionate person - not just regarding intimacy, but cuddles, kissing, holding hands, and just generally using physical contact as part of communication. My wife isn't like that at all.

We're going through a very difficult time and I've said that, for my part, this is something that must change. I don't expect her to become all touchy-feely overnight, but to be ok with it when I want to kiss her goodbye in the morning? Yeah, I think that's a fair request. We haven't has so much as peck in a month. We've hugged once in that time with her clearly not wanting to . Oh, and when she came home drunk from a night out she curled up next to me for warmth. That's the most affection I've had from her in weeks.

I love my wife so much, but I struggle to believe that she loves me. I have my suspicions as to what is wrong, but if I ever mention them I am shouted at until I give up.

I feel so completely alone in a house that we made our home. I don't know what to do to save things. I don't want to think of the alternative to saving things.
fullofdoubt fullofdoubt
26-30, M
May 12, 2012