Do I Even Exist?

This is definitely not what I pictured when I I married my husband 10 years ago.  We were so close, best friends.  He was my protector.  That person is gone and has been for about 5 years. I don't know this person that I share a life with.  I have put up with more in the last 5 years than I would care to admit.  I used to be so strong.  We have 4 children together and for me, they are the only reason that we are still together.  I don't want my kids to have to change the life they love because we can't make it work.

There is no intimacy.  Hasn't been for a very long time.  For a long time, I was ok with it.  I went about my business and just did what I needed to do.  I am beginning to miss it though.  I don't think that there is any hope for us.  I miss having someone to talk to, someone to cuddle with, someone to SEE me.
NeedingYou NeedingYou
36-40
1 Response May 13, 2012

i am here because i need to take<br />
my mind off my husband. i need friends.