Lonely And Feeling Used

28 years ago I married my high school sweetheart. The first few years we were very happy. We have 4 kids now with only the two youngest still living at home and we also have 3 grandkids. Over the years my hubby and I have grown further and further apart. He developed a drug addiction which is pretty much under control at this time. Even I stayed with him during all of that mess it drove us even further apart. I used to feel like I was married to my best friend but now there is no trust or any other feelings either. If I try to have a conversation with him he starts yelling or blocks me out. He is on disability so at home all the time while I work and yet I still have to do all the housework and things like that. Any money that comes into the house he takes even if it is in my wallet or purse. At this point I am ready to walk away but don.t know where to start. I suffer from depression and social anxiety and I have never lived alone. None of my family lives anywhere near me and because of the social anxiety I dont have any friends that I can turn to for advice. Sometimes I just need to get it all off my chest. Thanks for letting me vent and get it out of my system at least for a little while....
blumama50 blumama50
46-50, F
4 Responses May 17, 2012

Hi, have you ever tried therapy (for you) and rehab (ur husband)?

Sorry to hear about your troubles, i hope in the end it all works out for the best. take care and dont give up hope.

Thanks riley7253 its nice to feel welcomed.

You've come to the right place to start. Most of the folks you meet here will be good people but don't let the few from the other side of the coin chase you away.