Until When?For years, I'd been alone raising my kids though the man that I married helps out financially. He only gives money and I take care of everything.
My son was barely a year old when we left their father and my daughter was a stout toddler. Now both of them sing and dance, rap and purr all over me like kittens. My daughter's head is at my shoulder level and my son knows how to say I love you redundantly.
Yes, it's been like yesterday. As I see it they're ok without a dad whom they don't see everyday. He only visits once or twice a month or whenever he has free time. I don't see myself going out without my little bunch of joys.
I am married but lonely because my kids are growing up without a father. They don't have a complete family. I am not with them everyday because of work.
I am contemplating of accepting the offer from their dad. He wants us to live together again in one roof. For years, he has been convincing me to go back to him with the kids.
I was reluctant because I knew in my heart that I haven't forgiven him yet totally, that I could not trust him anymore, that I don't love him now. He crushed my world, he turned off the light in my Universe. My milky way was so dim that I couldn't see the moon and the stars. I revolve in an endless journey while groping in he dark. Now that I am bouncing back, he saw the light of day, promising the earth and the sky.
I don't believe him.
For the sake of the kids, I am happy with the idea. My heart says no but my kids need a family.
4BlackForest 36-40, F 3 Responses 2 May 30, 2012