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For years, I'd been alone raising my kids though the man that I married helps out financially. He only gives money and I take care of everything.

My son was barely a year old when we left their father and my daughter was a stout toddler. Now both of them sing and dance, rap and purr all over me like kittens. My daughter's head is at my shoulder level and my son knows how to say I love you redundantly.

Yes, it's been like yesterday. As I see it they're ok without a dad whom they don't see everyday. He only visits once or twice a month or whenever he has free time. I don't see myself going out without my little bunch of joys.

I am married but lonely because my kids are growing up without a father. They don't have a complete family. I am not with them everyday because of work.

I am contemplating of accepting the offer from their dad. He wants us to live together again in one roof. For years, he has been convincing me to go back to him with the kids.

I was reluctant because I knew in my heart that I haven't forgiven him yet totally, that I could not trust him anymore, that I don't love him now. He crushed my world, he turned off the light in my Universe. My milky way was so dim that I couldn't see the moon and the stars. I revolve in an endless journey while groping in he dark. Now that I am bouncing back, he saw the light of day, promising the earth and the sky.

I don't believe him.

For the sake of the kids, I am happy with the idea. My heart says no but my kids need a family.
4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 4 Responses May 30, 2012

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What ended up happening with this?

I went back to him. After a year I left again for good. That was the final episode. He did cast all the blame-game to me, called me every word that can satisfy his deflated ego. There was even a time that I cried overnight because he did not stop texting mean words.
Now, I refused to talk to him. We see in the eye if he wanna see the kids but that's it. I bring the kids to him then pick them up later.
The last time they had their bonding time at the mall, I was having facial with diamond peel. LOL
Yeah, am happier now.

They say the strength of a woman can not be measured. But you, your strength goes way beyond that. Hold your head high! You have much to be proud of!!

Yeah, I am holding my head high because I have a pretty face from that salon facial treatment.
thank you. ;-)

Good for you! Glad to hear things are good for you now.

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don;t worry , god looks out for women as yourself :) ,just remeber this , what goes around ,:) comes around :) thats alll i;am saying :)

Wishing the best that life has to offer for you and your kids!

Such a double edged sword but I totally understand how you feel.<br />
The kids eventually grow and leave but there is always the argument that having a mum and dad on tap gives a more balanced childhood.<br />
You also have to think of yourself!<br />
Only you can really know how you feel and how you can cope.<br />
I wish you everything you wish yourself ( especially your happiness). xox

thank you...everyone is excited except me. I am used to being myself most of the time. I feel like my privacy and peaceful life will be endangered.

I know you will never feel the trust there and you might feel suffocated. There again fairy takes can happen!

yeah and now what happened?...still had the same cycle. Glad am over it now.
No more cycles, just a straight line to what the future brings.