I suppose my title sums it up. Brief background, whirlwind romance, 3 kids and twelve years later just about the most lonely, sad, self loathing person out there. What to do? Not even a really good friend to turn to (ditched 'em all while trying to be the best mom in the universe.....huge backfire) which is why I'm here. Sick of crying and trying to drink the problems away, drinking isn't really my style anyway. I think I'd even light a fatty if I had one but those days are looooong gone and my husband is so boring and goody goody I'd go to hell forever I'm sure. Just lost right now and so incredibly sad.