Do I End It??

I met my wife in November of 2010 on eHarmony. I'm 35. She was in Russia. We had a great internet romance and the chemistry was there. I went to see her in February and decided that I she should move here on a fiancee visa and she took that as we were engaged. When she got here in August things were different. We are two different people. She painted a different picture of who she was, and we don't see the world in the same way. But she had already come here and I thought my feelings would come around so we kinda rushed into marriage last October.

I remember before getting married that I just wasn't ready, and we seemed to talk around the issue and still went through with it.

I'm not physically attracted to her even though she is an attractive woman. I find myself become more upset, annoyed, anxious, etc. which is just not me. I feel she is sucking the good out of me, even when she is being positive.

Bottom line is now I know my feeling will not come around, but I can't break her heart and leave her. It's my biggest flaw that I cannot deal with confrontation and don't want to hurt people. And her life is so much better now that she is in the US, and I don't want to take that away from her.

I am lost and know there is someone out there for me, but she is not the one. Yet I feel I will be stuck with her forever. We do have good times, but I don't feel good with her.

I doubt I will ever do anything, but it was nice to put it out there.... I'll update if anything happens.

Till then...