I Love Him But Do't Know If He Loves Me Too....I got married after meeting a person once we actually felt connected as it was the first time in my life i was talking, yes, i always was a listener. i never had the courage to speak what i felt. I was so happy to speak, he made me.
We got married after exact 21 days it was an arrange marriage. I was honestly trembling when he kissed me first, yup i wanted to run away. He had to struggle to make love with me. i remember he scolded me of being immature i cried he fell asleep, i tried to sleep it was 4 in morning when he forcefully took my clothes off and i had sex for the first time.
Slowly i fell in love with him i knew i had to in order to make our marriage successful. Sex is something which has to happen.I started to enjoy a healthy sexual life after 3 months before which we had it everyday sometimes even 4 times a day.
Its been almost an year i love him but he never say that except for when he wants sex. I feel lonely its always like he is accusing me of having small boobs, being thin and everything. i sometimes wonder why is it with indian men they want an educated dumb wife.
Whenever i try to suggest he ignores and when i don't he gets annoyed its like i have to predict what he wants me to say and say it. i feel lonely! Sometimes i badly need a hug and he's not there its childish according to him.
I have a healthy sexual life but i emotionally feel left out. i m tired of crying. He is very caring. But is always using abusive language. I don't enjoy jokes on my parents. He never shares anything.
I have tried telling him what i feel. But he is indifferent. I want to be loved. I need him. what should i do is there anybody to suggest?