Not Who I Thought

We married for different reasons. Different then most. It's not been all bad. But mostly, I've been lonely. There are certainly some intimacy issues. Trust. He's not who I thought I'd end up with.
experiencingnow experiencingnow
26-30, F
2 Responses Nov 27, 2012

I feel for you. Major trust issue. She cheated with me, ran away with me and now I'm being left alone just like the guy before. I don't know whether or not it's my worst fear, and have lived that way long enough not to care anymore now and want out. All I know is she's only intimate toward me to stop me from leaving. It seems to be all she cares about, keeping me there. Not making each other happy. Just staying. I'm hoping soon I'll have the nerve to resist her. But I still love her and get suckered every time.

I used to think if I ever felt alone while I was married I would just leave. It sounds so simple, until you actually find yourself living it...hope things get better for you!

There is a saying....if you have a lemon, make lemonaid. Look for the rays of sunshine between the clouds.

It doesn't always work does it