I Have Finally Woken Up....
I have been in an on again off again relationship for over 15years, we have three chilldren who i adore and my partner is very angry 99% of the time. He get angry at the kids,at the cat at anything. He isnt physically abusive but he is mentally and emotionally.
I loved this man with all of my heart and always dreamt that we woukd grow old together but noe i realize that this will never happen. i am sooo lonely its not funny, its like i have a housemate not a partner. we never go out together anywhere, we never talk the only thing that is great between us is our sex life,sad but true. i never knew a site like this existed until i put it thru my facebook search and didint realize how many others are in the same boat. He has never even proposed to me after so many years and three children. But i do and must believe that my perfect love is out there somewhere waiting for me, its just so hard to end it all and i have guilt over my kids but know that its not normal to have a relationship that is based on sex.
i feel pretty stupid posting this but need to get it all out of my system, i have cried too many tears over this man and now know that he doesnt deserve anymore, i tried my hardest to make him happy and nothing has ever worked.
It is now time for me to find my happiness because i deserve it.