I hate the feeling of being alone, really hate it sometimes. It seems like getting married should have guaranteed you'd have one person in your life, by your side, no matter what. I hate how hollow it makes me feel, the empty look in his eyes, the blank stare, the robotic way hand holding, hugging, or cuddling can feel like a task that's getting checked off a list somewhere. She's upset... hug her... check. I thought this site could help with that sometimes talking with people who share similarities...but sometimes I wonder if it doesn't just make me more hollow.