When we met he had 3 kids, I loved, accepted and nurtured them and we have had 3 together. His older 3 have made my life hell. His oldest boy has sodomized me, and hit me repeatedly along with getting his younger brother to join him in beating me once. His daughter has disrespected me and continues to have no respect for me, her father or her own child. Now our younger 3 are seeing all of this and I know its hurting them. I have tried leaving him, but he has threatened that if I ever take the younger 3 and leave he will track me down and kill me and make sure my body is never found. He has smacked me for not backing down to his son and doesn't seem to see anything wrong with the boys putting their hands on me or any other female. There are so many screwy things in this relationship, but I am just so afraid. I want out so bad that I don't know if i've ever wanted anything any more. I know that there is no way he could possibly respect me let alone love me.