I Am Married, Lonely And Crave Intimacy
Little bit about me. We got married in 2007 but been together since 2001. We have two kids together, and she has two more kids from other men that I have raised as my own. I work full time, in college working on counseling degree, I run an outreach that works with young adults and youth in gangs and/or on drugs, and I also counsel on the side.
I know I am not the perfect husband, but I am giving it all that I can. When my wife cheated on me with a friend/ someone I helped and brought into my home when he didn't have one, I could have left her. I stayed and worked on all the things she said I did wrong, I changed in the areas she said drove her to have an affair.
I now am the one that feels lonely; I am the one craving communication and intimacy. It is funny how I spend so much of my day listening to her, the kids, the people from my outreach and I do not have anyone I can talk to. I have tried talking with my wife, but she is the type to do the talking and when I speak she is thinking about the next thing to say. She hears me but doesn't listen to a word I say.
For a while, I was ok with satisfying the hunger for intimacy with sex. Like the sneakers ad "satisfy your hunger with a sneaker" but it is not enough anymore, I want more. I want, crave intimacy. The openness, the communication, the bonding, flirting, sharing of emotions and thoughts. Without intimacy all we have is just sex, and that is once in a blue moon.
I am looking for other people that feel the way I feel, I want to meet other people that I can talk with. Do I want to much? in todays culture should a man only want sex and be ok with just sex? "I love sex but I want more"
I know I am not the perfect husband, but I am giving it all that I can. When my wife cheated on me with a friend/ someone I helped and brought into my home when he didn't have one, I could have left her. I stayed and worked on all the things she said I did wrong, I changed in the areas she said drove her to have an affair.
I now am the one that feels lonely; I am the one craving communication and intimacy. It is funny how I spend so much of my day listening to her, the kids, the people from my outreach and I do not have anyone I can talk to. I have tried talking with my wife, but she is the type to do the talking and when I speak she is thinking about the next thing to say. She hears me but doesn't listen to a word I say.
For a while, I was ok with satisfying the hunger for intimacy with sex. Like the sneakers ad "satisfy your hunger with a sneaker" but it is not enough anymore, I want more. I want, crave intimacy. The openness, the communication, the bonding, flirting, sharing of emotions and thoughts. Without intimacy all we have is just sex, and that is once in a blue moon.
I am looking for other people that feel the way I feel, I want to meet other people that I can talk with. Do I want to much? in todays culture should a man only want sex and be ok with just sex? "I love sex but I want more"
By:
boss21519
Age:
31-35
,
Male
