Maybe It's MeI had a conversation with my husband today that left me feeling that maybe it's not him - it's me. Maybe we've been through so much and I've been hurt by him too many times that I've become numb to him. I think I have emotionally shut down when it comes to him. This is a sad reality for me.
I feel very lonely and empty realizing this. I have small children to think about but a part of me does not want to live like this any longer. I don't want to be a single mom but I want to be happy. I don't want to live in this house with just me and my kids but I also don't want to come home and see him either. And when did sex become something on my to do list?
I want to be crazy in love with my husband. I want to kiss him passionately, hold hands, and be excited to see him. But that is not my reality. I don't even know how to get back to that point. We used to be friends, at one point, I considered him my best friend. Now, he gets information on a need to know basis because I don't think he's listening when I'm talking. Is this what happens when you have children and a career? Do you just lose touch? How do other couples make it work and seem to be happy and in love?
007love 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 Dec 9, 2012