Self-sacrifice, And Then What?

It's been so long since I had any real intimacy, emotionally or sexually.

I crave it, so badly.

I want to spend hours talking to someone who can understand me and contribute to the conversation. I want to have sex with someone who ***** back. I am lonely, but I seem to be unable to take any steps towards finding someone.

I've had a couple opportunities, but I never pursued. I regret that. Honestly, I don't know that I am capable of having a physical affair. I am very curious though.

I am not living life as myself. There are so many things about who I am, and what I feel that I can not share with anyone in my life. I am very ready for a change, but I am stuck in the situation I am in for now.

I fantasize about being alone. How weird is that? I wonder about women I meet... what they think, how they behave, what they would be like tied up and carefully denied ****** for an hour.

I feel desperate, and chained by my own conscience.
ShellOfAMan ShellOfAMan
2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

BIG HUGS and a nice cuddle comfort!! :)


If you don't have any kids, you have an incredible opportunity to move on. Having kids makes it many times more difficult to move. This year I am trying to give it my best effort, including counseling as necessary, and make sure my wife knows there is a time limit to my efforts. If things aren't significantly better, I'm moving on next year.

Good luck.