Enough?I have been married to my husband for 18 years. I am at the point where I don't know if I love him anymore. I feel lots of resentment towards him. He has been diagnosed as bipolar for about 2 years, however our son who has just turned 18 has been diagnosed since he was about 12.
I have come to the decision to have some time away from him. Call it a split or separation if that is what you want to call it. But I am tired. My own health has been compromised by high blood pressure, weight gain and depression of my own. I am unsure if I still love him. I know he loves me I have never doubted that through our marriage of infidelity, financial woes, and his mood swings.
He is faithful in taking his medications..lamictal, seroquil, testosterone, and a few other meds that I cannot remember. He works late and then takes the meds and goes to sleep, we get in time together but I don't care to be alone with him anymore. I run away from intimacy, I just don't want to be with him like that and I am tired of turning him down. He says that he would take a year of having no intimacy than to not be with me. I don't think that is enough for me.
I think I need time, time away from him, time to heal myself and to help our boys.
niknup4christ 36-40, F 4 Responses 1 Apr 4, 2011