To Hell With Him,not Me!

we met and became inseperable instantly.we wer married 3 weeks after we met.none the less i shouldve ran when he told me he was bipolar.but he had so many other things to offer besides that problem that i ignored it.well its 2 years later,he had a blackout a few weeks ago,hurt my arm and laughed while he did it,this was after demanding to relaspe in his sobriety.i forgave him when he told me he didnt remember it but the condition to his coming home was that he takes his meds.he did,for 2 wks,now he says he "chooses to keep his balls instead" of taking the lithium hes prescribed.but its very dangerous,n a matter of time before he hurts me again.hes already defended hurting my arm which isnt him,and wasnt his opinion when he came home he felt terrible about what he had done to me.ove told him if he isnt gonna take the lithium i want him to leave,ofcourse he refuses which is a typical reaction for him.ive always tried to be there for him but its starting to suck the life out of me so ive been spending alot more time wit my kids at the park,or riding around,just doing things i like.i lie about what im doing or leave out details becuz he would make it about him thats what bipolar men do,n its about me n what i need when i take this time to myself.but man am i tired,drained,feel unloved n hurt n lied to.he says things that hurt me often,he only cares about his feelings,i miss being loved and appreciated n not so confused or misserable.i love him but i ******* hate him.i am leaving soon or finding a way to make him cuz i cant live my whole life like this,unhappy n constantly keeping him from getting arrested every time he dosnt get his way somwhere.i love this site though,its nice to know im not alone.
rachael23invermont rachael23invermont
22-25, F
1 Response May 20, 2012

I was engaged to a man who was severely bipolar. He refused to take meds. His highs were really high. It was like you, we were inseparable. His lows? Downright awful. Break ups, physical fights, constantly lying about me to everyone (and it didn't help that his mother would jump on his bandwagon as well). We were engaged, on and off, for 2 1/2 years. Well, for the last time, we tried to work it out this past march (2012). Well, apparently, he met some random girl at that same exact time. He decided to stick with her. He moved in with her second week of April. They became officially engaged May 3rd. They got married June 11th (this past monday). I gave him 2 1/2 years. She gives him 2 1/2 months. His bipolar is so out of control, he is now in a shotgun marriage. No one close to him (his real friends) don't accept/encourage this. I've made the decision to leave him alone and close the door behind me. Just a word to the wise, NEVER date someone with Bipolar. I know it may sound biased as hell. But this man? Moved me all the way to the under end of the ******* country because he was determined to be with "the woman he loves" (which was me at that time).