Healing Together, The Emotional Rollercoaster Ride
Four years ago I met the most wonderful man and made a choice to marry him. One year after marriage he had rapid cycling episodes, and the onset of his night terrors took flight. At the time, I figured it was PTSD or something related to his military experiences as an officer-captain in the Gulf War, Post 9-11 combat related experiences. Little did we know, that his frequent episodes and mood altering problems were linked to bipolar 1 diagnosis. It was and the man who I had fallen in love with suddenly became depressed and angry all the time. It was a scary time for both of us and the pain endured unexplainable. He literally went off the deep end. I told him if he didn't want to help himself and figure out solutions for our family then he didn't care enough about us to fight against the horror of bipolar 1 symptoms that suddenly showed its ugly self to us from time to time. I don't blame my husband for this at all!! But we have choices and he made the choice to get better for us in the end. Now he is stable and regularly taking his meds to feel a sense of self again. He said before the meds he felt trapped in his own mind and now he recognises how it affected our family. We are happier now. My prayers have been answered. My husband is longer a victim to his diagnosis and the symptoms are under control. We still have are challenges but not to the severity of what this was prior to my husband's treatment. To all the wives out there suffering, please hear me loud and clear. You are so Strong and I think you're Brave for staying by your "man" under these circumstances. Keep working through healing through creating treatment plan with your husband's psychiatrist!! Be there every step of the way, and things will get better!! It did for us!