Looking Forward To Some Boring, Uneventful DaysI married a bipolar man. It became clear to me that something was wrong almost immediately after saying I do. He “woke up” one day as the “angry guy” and couldn’t put a finger on why. Then after a few days to a week he was the wonderful big hearted loving man I fell in love with. This pattern of nasty and nice continued on for the rest of our almost 20 years of marriage. He became unbearably controlling, nothing was ever his fault and his expectations of me and the people around him, only God could fill them.
There was a time when he refused to talk to me for three weeks because I “invaded his territory”….ie: I did yard work. I would think he might be glad that he didn’t have to do the work. But instead he said I disrespected him and didn’t speak to me for weeks. He constantly feels disrespected and offended; everything is always someone else’s fault and if things don’t go his way, there is hell to pay!
There was a brief time when he sought help, but the meds he took made him angrier. Instead of sticking with it and trying other things, he gave up on it and has refused treatment to this day with the exception of occasional “talk therapy”.
Four children and almost 20 years later I am filing for divorce. It breaks my heart that he wouldn’t get the help he needed years ago. But for the sake of the health of our children and myself….I need to get off the rollercoaster.
I am looking forward to some “boring”….peaceful days in the future.