How Long Would You Fight?

 I have been married to the love of my life for 9 blissful years. We have had ups and downs, but show me a marriage that hasnt? We have 2 extra-ordinary children aged 7 and 6yrs. 2 months ago my husband told me he is having issues with his sexuality. I am not repulsed or offended by the homosexual lifestyle, this being said, he remains unsure of which world he belongs to, is the "gay" world or the "straight" world. He is an amazing husband and father and would do anything to make us all happy. Unfortunately his need for resolution has led him astray- he is in a sexual relationship with another man (yes he is being safe, i am not sleeping with him). I have told him before that there is no battle we cannot face together. I feel his pain and torment over this almost impossible dilema. He wants to be a family man, and yet part of himself is being pulled to explore this other side of himself- he is not convinced that he is gay- as a youngster he never explored his sexuality and all his repressed feelings and desires are surfacing now. I am stuck! I love him more than anything, the sex, prior to this was always fantastic, he agrees on that. For him this is less about sex and more about exploring that part of himself. I know you may think im crazy for hanging around- but im a fighter, even if there is the slightly glimmer of hope that my marriage can work than we owe it to each other and our children to try. He has 5 weeks to spend whatever time he wants with this other man- then i turn 30- i have told him i do not want to go into another year of my life uncertain as to where his heart truely belongs. A tall order i know, but i think i deserve at least that in all of this. So here i am....completely in love with a man who says he loves me more than anything, its highly unusual circumstances, but ordinary is boring. What if i leave and this was all just a way for him to feel whole so we can move on to be better than ever!