I Stand Alone

In my battle of life, I constantly battle my families past. No matter where I go my past comes back to haunt me. People always come to me for help, I honestly don't know why. I'm just another teenager trying to figure out who I am, so why do people expect me to help them with their issues when I can't even handle my own. I always try to be "that guy" who is always willing to help. I love helping people, honestly it makes me feel like i'm not a useless piece of shiza that has nothing to offer to the world. I try and try, but no cigar. My love always expects way to much of me she is the love of my life, so I try as hard as I can to be the "perfect boyfriend" that she deserves. She deserves so much better then me, so I don't understand what she sees in me. I love her to death, and I really want to be what she desreves. I really don't undertsand what my meaning in life is, but who does? The only thing I do understand is when i'm hungry. I have nobody that feels my pain, or knows what I know.
People always call me a f.ag just because I pretend to hit on guys, when i'm really just trying to make them uncomfortable I think it's hilarious when a guy tries to defend their sexuality. I have a wierd brain.