i am. i know it. i've seen counselors and psychologists my whole life. i'm bonkers. it's ok though. i have people who love me and try to help me take care of myself. those who love me really love me for all that i am, not what i should be. i made peace with it (as much a person can anyway) and try to just live. i try. but it is hard some days. but whatever i am, i've always been as open and honest as i could be. take it or leave it. you'd probably be better off to leave it. i won't apologize for things beyond my control.