I'm Trying ...

I just want to be me. But that's hard since I'm not always open about myself. I have known forever that I was a girl, despite being born male. But I played the part expected. Now I don't know if I'll ever get out of the shell I've created for myself.




Josie06 Josie06
56-60, F
15 Responses Nov 22, 2006

good post. I hope you have found inner peace.

I wish that we could live in a world were everyone could express themselves the way they want.<br />
A place were everyone is respected, accepted and included ;(

It's neat to be able to read a story you wrote so long ago. Like I said your confidence is inspiring so congratulations for coming out of your shell!!! <br />
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Keep reaching for the stars and sharing your 2,000 + stories. (Wow you can write ; )

I know first hand about the shell or prison as I like to call it. I am now me although it took some very difficult situations to get me here. You are the wonderful you that you enjoy being. People will either accept you for who you are or walk away taking with them all of their negative expectations. The choice is up to you luv. Short and sweet.

I have shed some light into these areas Jessie101. Not much as yet, but there are glimpses to be read through stories and comments on others stories.

You're certainly shining through our eyes. You're doing your best and that's all I can ask. You're great because after all, you are you.

Thank you all, so very very much. For reading and letting me know your thoughts.

That shell is partly of our own making and design, but its also in our power to shatter or unravel that shell. How much and when is up to you to decide (or even if you do). In the end you have to do what's right for you and what makes you happy.<br />
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"You can't make an omlette without cracking any eggs" is so true, and sadly people won't understand your choices and may strongly disagree with what you do to your body. However, its your body and your life. At night they aren't the ones with the tears because they are miserable with themselves. They aren't the ones who look in the mirror and see the person inside clawing to get out.<br />
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Josie, those are your demons to deal with... and I hope you are able to make the choices so you find your bliss. People like me will be here to cheer you on along your journey.

I understand so well, we spend a lifetime building the image people expect of us so we can survive in the so called "normal" world. Our lives slip by, years, decades, we're never happy, our real selves locked deep inside some closet, never becoming who we really desire to be, we find ourselves trapped in a shell of our own creation. I wish you well Josie, I truly do. The road ahead is not paved.

Thank you all.

You're a beautiful lady. Luckily, there's something you can do about it nowadays. :-)

i think i understand the part about creating a shell for yourself and then one day finding that you dont want to be that person anymore.

I was told long ago that my parents had planned to have 2 boys and 2 girls and that my being born male messed up the family plan. That was over 30 years ago...

I hope that whatever decision you make, it is the one that makes you happy.

wow <br />
i admire you and wish you well.<br />
life sux sometimes and ppl can be so cruel, but i hope you haven't been jaded by that.<br />
love and respect<br />