When I first suffered my breakdown, I was put on several medications....seroqoel, ambien, zoloft, xanax...then changed to prozac insted of zoloft...others didn't seem to work....celexa, lexapro, depakote...I was even on neurontin for a while. I finally quit the seroqel. after several years i felt I didn't need it anymore. Long story short, I am now on valium, lunesta, effexor, abilify, and for pain management because of my degenerative disc disease I am on percocet and sometimes vicodin, skelaxin (a muscle relaxant), and lunesta to help me sleep from time to time. . I wonder sometimes if the meds do more harm than good, but I see a difference when i go without. Some ocviously cause withdrawal if you stop taking them cold turkey. My hardest realization is that I actually do still need some of these meds to function. *sigh* I hate being this way.
I am reading and reseacrhing alternative methods, including acupuncture, but insurance doesn't cover much of it. I am also reseraching diet and exercise, but this depressive cycle kills my otivation, not too mention my time contraints. But I guess if you are serious, you have to go through that door and close it behind you. No going back until you come out the other side. Closing that door scares me.