How Do I Get Him Back?!??!?!?

I was with my boyfriend who will very soon enough be a Marine for over two years. Before christmas this past year, we were talking about picking out my engagement ring and such, and when he comes from his dad's in washington (we both live in Missouri) somethings off and he tells me that he thinks he doesn't love me anymore. And two weeks prior, we were looking at rings! We worked past that, and he told me 4 days after he said "i don't think I love you anymore" that he really truly does love me. We were fine, and then two weeks later he finds out that he might have to leave for basic training in a few weeks rather that a few months. I freaked out because I was emotionally exahausted. I calmed down and was excited for him. 1 week before we broke up he told me that he wants me to be 100% sure that I can wait for him while he's in basic and while he's off doing other training. he said the same thing 2 DAYS before he broke up with me. (I did cheat on him way way way back, like the first few weeks of our relationship. he didn't find out until a year later.)

The night we broke up (about a month ago), he's near tears, and he tells me that "he doesn't feel the same way." I lost it. We talked everything, I calmed myself down and drove home. He wanted me to call him when I got there. I woke up the next morning not feeling anything, and I called him a 4 am. He picks up and talks to me for like 30 minutes. He's bought me lunch, and he gets real defensive when all of his friends are all over me. I kissed his best friend on the cheek, and the next day he's mad a me for no apparent reason.

Two weeks after we broke up, I went over to his house to apologize for something, and we end up sprawled out on his floor, making love. He didn't do just what he wanted. He made sure I was comforable the entire time, and that I got what I wanted.

All of his friends and my friends alike are all telling me to hold on, and that he still loves me. His best friend even talked to him and said that he's lying through his teeth.

I am religious. I feel like God is telling me to be patient and that he'll come to his senses, but this is a test.

I wouldn't hold on so much if I didn't get responses from him all of the time. I catch him staring at me constantly, and when I smile at him, I see that spark in him still.

I need help. I love him with all of my heart and I will do anything to get him back.

If you have an awesome suggestion that is foolproof, feel free to email me at:   rayohn2010@yahoo.com

I'll take any and all advice if it will work.

rayohn2010 rayohn2010
18-21, F
Mar 13, 2009