I'm tired of having the same conversation. I'm tired of having the same sick feeling every time I think of you. I'm tired of thinking that there's something wrong with me. That I'm not white, I'm not blue-eyed, I'm not blonde, I'm not tall, I'm not skinny, I hate sports, I'm not the nicest to everyone, and yes I have trust issues. And those are the reasons why. I have black hair, brown eyes, I'm 5'2, bigger than most girls my age, I'm bitter. I need someone who would make me feel like it's okay I'm not all the things I wish I was. I'm tired of feeling like I messed up, like I was asking for too much. Like I don't want to quite be in a relationship, but don't want to be just friends, but I also don't just want to take you out of my life completely. Ugh, I just don't know. I need to make up mind I guess. I'm really tired of crying at random times and getting the stomach pains. It's definitely gotten less painful through out the past like 3 weeks. Just the imagine of him and another girl kinda makes me upset. Especially if she's the exact opposite of me. Idk. I think he's made it pretty clear that he doesn't want me. So yeah I think, I've decided to at least try to move on. I just really don't know what to do anymore.
kidLeftInTheDark kidLeftInTheDark
16-17, F
Oct 15, 2015